Edward Kelly, Jr. is a former Pentecostal Fundamentalist minister. He lives in Bellevue, Nebraska and works as a case manager at Heartland Family Service.

Imagine this scenario: Stephan had made the appointment with her primary care doctor as a last resort. She had recently developed a habit of delaying seeing a doctor until the symptoms became overwhelming, and the symptoms now were unbearable, so she called. But she knew they would say the same thing. “Stephan, we still do not have a legal change of name. We have you as Stephen.” They just would not recognize her gender nor her name.

It was one big hassle. And when they came out and called her to go in, it was always the same: “Stephen.” She would walk up, and they would announce to the doctor, “Stephen is here.”

Edward Kelly, Jr. is a former Pentecostal Fundamentalist minister.

Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., wrote in his 1963 book Why We Can’t Wait, “Suddenly the truth was revealed that hate is a contagion; that it grows and spreads as a disease; that no society is so healthy that it can automatically maintain its immunity.”

I was a vicious carrier of that disease, marked by the symptoms of fear, hatred, and bigotry. I carried and spread it as a contagion for 30 years as a Fundamentalist preacher. I took great pride in my views, even referring to myself from the pulpit as a “Bible Bigot”—as if intolerance based on scripture was morally acceptable.

In 1996, while serving as an interim pastor in a small Assembly of God Church in eastern Iowa, I experienced a depressive suicidal crisis. There is something to be said about the Buddhist practice of accepting suffering as a part of the human experience. My depressive episode opened me up to introspection. After treatment, I began a long process—taking two decades—involving paideia.